I am Inspired by Everything


Music: Ups and downs, churns and timpanies, gruff growls and intense booms, vibrating vibrato and deep cool burns. The lashing of tongues and spitting of screams. The banshees and the sweet tinkle of bell-voices. The lacerating manic shrieks, the diamond violins, the thundering drums, the lightning keys, the blistering bayonet of basslines. I may suck in my breath for a whole bridge, or grit my teeth for a chorus cacophony, feeling every pore contract and every hair extend. When it pulses through each vein and hits my heart with a well strung arrow, I know it has hit that pulsating organ with all the energy I could possibly need for months.

Literature: The stream and twist of the letters in sequence, a lift in my breath from a lift in verisimilitude, the bloom of events meant to stir deliquium, the cozy familiarity of characters who feel real – concoctions probably based on reality, who are they? I want to know them. I want to dive into a page and swim with syntax, the page water and the ink swells, an oil spill of knowledge, the waves of paragraphs pushing me toward the shore of conclusion.

Art: Ink blots, Rorschach spreading into birds, faces, dandelions, gorillas, apples, forests, hydrangeas, gowns, nebulae – pearls of watercolours, crystals formed of clay, scratches of chalk, caramelized pastels, acrylic constellations, crayon creatures, they all speak to me because I am made of colours and pigments. My brain is grey so as to be infused with brightness and  fuchsia and marigold, neon leaves and vibrant lilac skies. Moondrops made of oily rainbows spread and blister into indigo bruises, chunky dried paint clusters on my heart.

Film: Truth or not there are always parts of us in the moving pixels – the ripples of alchemy, the light showing us the beauty in a simple object, an almost unnoticeable expression, the resplendence of a dewdrop on an eyelash. We need stories, and sometimes in motion – the eyes want loveliness and a screen is a pathway. Billowing daydreams out of your head, they mesh with images onscreen. We must always be moving. We must always be learning. The representation of horrors and triumphs and relationships and dance and fantasy – lay down and let it wash over the synapses, relax and let someone else think for you, meditate on imagery, melt into the visions of other human beings.

Nature: Light, storms, the fronds of trees, the tusks of elephants, the ferocity of lions, iridescent beetles, flies in spider cocoons, jewel eyes, sleek snakes in the reeds, clouds overpowering the blue, rain pummeling the grass, bull-rushes surrounding bullfrogs, chirping tuis, desert landscapes, every grain of sand a star in the universe, galaxies watching over us, the blindness of night, moon craters dipping into the tides, waves pushing forward the people brave enough to sway upon them, sunlight liquefied in leaves, wild blueberries, brambles and nettles, stinging ants, vines to entangle, Venus fly traps with piranha teeth, rivers gushing like orgasm, mountains to intimidate,
vicious sharp-teeth lurking in the deep, talons coming down from the sky, let’s all go to the sea and dip our toes into the infinite, drown ourselves in life, all of us are water, all of us are earth, we are all air, we are all fire.

People: My sister, my brother, you are made of all the same matter, your cells split for the same reasons, your limbs move for the same purpose, your brains are the same empty matter to fill – please unfurl it into a lengthy vine, let each leaf grow into a dream, let each flower bloom into a song. The sun for your brain is curiousity, the water for your brain is literature, the food for your brain is creativity, the sustenance for your brain is companionship, human and non-human, to lift you, push you, move with you, entangle you, embrace you – churn out all the beauty in you to crash down like comets into the world, to shoot like meteors into minds shrouded with steel – break them open, break me open, show me my downfalls, lead me into life, utopia hides in the dark.

Food: Luscious dripping mango, sticky lines down my throat, lemon rinds and orange zests, indigo   berries, scarlet apples, freckled bananas, the sweet roots of lettuce. Sun dried tomatoes chewed to pulp, a tang of grape, a sweet pudding of date squished between molars, scents from within, pomegranate pupils, nostrils pressed into durian pods. Pineapple cuts my tongue into razor edges,
unripe,  eyes feast on coconuts, nibbles of dandelion leaves, wild salal, crisp snap peas, projectile tomato seeds, stains on teeth, smears on cheeks, smiles on lips.

Animals: The softness of down on the cheek. Purrs assimilate with your breath. Wagging tails align with heartbeats. Strong muscles built with wild fruits and emerald blades cross your gaze in the jungle. Eyes peer from the trees. Elephants loom above with parasol ears, they cross the plains and touch the bones of lost ones. Lions laze in a daze. Elsewhere sharks loom, and jellyfish pulsate. Bats hover. Narwhals dive. Dolphins scatter and come together, twisting pleasure. Caribou in snow leaving little twig toe prints, suede-noses, steam breath, fine velvet antlers. Babies tiptoeing behind. Moose with voluminous crowns. Diamond backed otters. Zen-like cows as if dipped in inks. Sloth babies murmur and eat hibiscus. Pandas tumble in the bamboo. Falcons dip their toes into the thermals. Condors gaze down, the rare spies of above. Wolves rake their lips back and teeth shine. Lemurs dance upon fruit peels. Crocodiles bake their curled grins and arched backs. Where are the mammoths, where are the dodos? Where will the tigers be? where will we be without them all?

Fashion: Drape tiger-lilies around me, so I can slip into the sunlight. Adorn me with feathers so I can fly on to dance floors. Rocking-horse heels, sequined eyelids, rainbow tresses, popsicle lips – my ears droop with rubies, my legs are shellacked with latex. I am encased in spiderwebs, I am dipped in linen. Screaming bodies say to paint them with fabric, leave no limb neglected.

Sex: The loss of innocence only to be born again the moment you stop, then over and over until you feel every blood cell move with lightspeed to your chest, all at once, the cerebral cortex like a chainsaw cutting through your spine, opening you like a peach to swallow every morsel, all atoms suddenly visible, all focused on the moment, every thought here and now, you are the zen master.
Sex will electrify the world, the untapped energy source, the new fuel.

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Inspiration is endless – all you need to do is look, keep open, appreciate constantly, and be aware of beauty in amongst the gloom.

This is by no means a complete list – I just wanted to get it out there or I could write it for years.

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Photos all from Pinterest. Top 2: Unknown. 3: Vali Myers (Moby DIck). 4. Doom Generation film still (weird movie, great visuals). 5: National Geographic (I think). 6. Hans Silvester (Natural Fashion: Tribal Decoration From Africa). 7/8/9/10: Unknown.

You Want to Be Vibrant and Alive – Here’s How

To live a passionate existence, I know I must do the following. Feel free to integrate these things into your life – the more you do, the happier and more blissful you will feel.

The goal is to feel like you did as a child – full of wonder, love, excitement for life, and clear, open, ready for new experiences and new knowledge.

1. Eat what you are designed for – carbohydrates, raw, as in fruit. TONS of fruit. This will have a profound effect on your life – just keep the fat in your diet low, the protein low (both below 15%, and even better 10%) – keeping track at the beginning is important, to make sure you get enough calories – they are your friend. Focus on fruit and greens, and you’re off to a good start.

2. Get SUNSHINE. To vilify the sun is SO 90s (and, um…I love the 90s). Your skin needs it – depending on how dark you are, you need around 20-60 mins a day of direct sunlight (more if you are dark-skinned) – this is not to tan or burn – this is for pure vitamin assimilation! Become one with the sun – heliophilia! (best done totally naked, lying in the sand or on the grass – be sneaky!)

3. Take a vitamin B12 supplement – this is the ONLY one I recommend, and make sure it is liquid, and methylcobalamin. If you don’t know anything about B12, do a little research – a deficiency in this can mimic a ton of other issues – and it is NOT purely a vegan/vegetarian problem. Even most animals that people eat have had B12 injections – this is because it’s almost impossible to get it from our pour, eroded soil anymore. Sea veggies and algae do not contain B12 that we can absorb, so when supplementing, make sure you get the right sort (most are not…go figure). Get your blood, or even better, your urine, tested, If you’re really low, get the injections, then keep it up with the liquid.

4. Move your body – and I don’t mean exercise. I mean go play. Exercise is for people who don’t know how to have fun – did you “exercise” as a kid? No wey! You burnt your energy by playing. So go use a hula hoop, bike with your pals, have sex, swim in the ocean, walk your dog (or your neighbour’s), and other other fun sort of movement you like. Dancing is key.

5. Educate yourself – stop listening to the masses. This is probably the most important thing you can do for yourself. Typical information that is filtered through to you via news, media, advertising, DOCTORS, etc – is NOT the right sort! I have been reading about nutrition for over 4 years, DAILY, and feel like I have a good grasp of what works and what does not – and this is because I have sought out people who are not out to grab your money – even when I got into raw foods I noticed this, and a lot of raw food “gurus” are hucksters – they may be good for something (getting your interest in natural foods) but then they will attempt to sell you things after convincing you that the raw diet is deficient. It’s not!! The only thing you could possibly be deficient in (if done CORRECTLY!) is B12 and vitamin D – like EVERYONE else, meat-eater or not.
Also, learning what certain things do to you MENTALLY, as well as physically, will make you regard certain “foods” as what they really are – garbage. You won’t want them anymore.

6. If you feel like doing something harmful to yourself, go have an orgasm instead.

7. Make sure you have human contact – and I don’t mean just hanging out with your friends. I mean TOUCH them – HUG them – if you don’t have any friends, becoming more blissful will change your life – you will be magnetic and make new pals – I PROMISE – it happened to me! And in the meantime, if you have a lack of human touch – go get massages. There was a point in my life where I went 2 years with almost no human contact – it was horrible and I was willing to pay for it. If you can’t afford it, go to a massage school, it’s cheaper.

8. Reevaluate every relationship you have – if anyone gets in the way of you making your life better – remove them from your life – whether it be partners, friends, jobs, or family – nothing is set in stone – you don’t have to love someone just because they are related to you or because you have been with them for 10 years or because you have children – make your life YOURS, make yourself happy and people will automatically come in and go out of your life – the law of attraction will bring you what you focus on, and the bad things will drift away. Most importantly, reevaluate your relationship with yourself.

9. Shift your focus – this gets easier once your body is clear of toxic crap – focus on your physical body first (well, a bit of both – you have to REALLY want to be healthy and happy to stick to a clean way of living like this!) – start to focus on what you want, instead of what you don’t want – like “I want to be lean, healthy, and vibrant!” instead of “Oh god, I’m so fat and gross, why bother.”

10. Realize that anything you are attempting has been done before, and so it can be done again – you are no better or no worse than anyone else – we all have the same abilities, and if for some unfortunate reason someone had something happen to them to render them disabled, there are PLENTY of examples of how they have triumphed as well. So stop using things as excuses, and go forth.

11. Question your thinking. Ask yourself “is it loving?” every time you do something – ANYTHING! Or any time you want to not do something  – ask yourself if it is loving. Is it loving to not floss your teeth? (no, it is loving to DO so, and it takes one minute!) Is it loving to eat that huge burger? (no, it is neither loving to the animal, or your own body). This is a simple technique I have made up that works wonders.

Check out  Loving What Is: Four Questions That Can Change Your Life by Byron Katie to discover the most simple, powerful technique on questioning your thoughts – NOTHING has helped me so much – no other self-help book, blog, anything – than this woman’s books. I reread them if necessary.

12. Drink spring water – failing that, drink ANY water, and lots of it – even if you eat raw food, you need pure water – make sure you are peeing clear! Check out findaspring.com to locate a fresh spring near you – your body will be very happy!!

13. SLEEP ENOUGH! It is best to link up to the rhythms of the sun – but I know how difficult it is to adjust your natural clock – I am a night person and have never enjoyed getting up early – however, I know I need daylight, and so I don’t stay up until 6am anymore (I can’t anyway, since I work!) – but make sure you get enough sleep – try to wake up without your alarm clock. Get a minimum of 8 hours  but if you seem to need more, get more. Especially if you are going through a detox, your body is rebuilding – give it time, and rest up! Read in bed :]

Health is EASY.

Here are some books to get you started! I know a lot of these tips are probably ones you have read before, but there is a reason everyone repeats them – they work. Now I am going to listen to my own advice and go to bed.