It’s exhausting and frustrating being interested in (almost) everything.
But I can’t stop.
I wear an ankh necklace for a reason. And I actually want one tattooed on my wrist. As a reminder that I am NOT immortal, and that my time is finite and I need to make the most of every damn minute I have. I don’t really have time for a “regular” job (but I do try to make the most of my time when I am there, plus I am surrounded by lovely people and masses of knowledge).
So much to do. I know I post about it often, but I really do not understand how anyone can be bored. There is so much to do, see, revel in, taste, smell, drink in, love up, dance upon, swirl in, dive into, fondle, make love to, swim through, feast your eyes on, share with lovers, read, imagine, create.
I get so immersed in things. I read all I can. I want to take part in so many things yet much of what I love doing requires solitude. I don’t go out much anymore and this is going to change. I gotta get out there again and experience real life. Winter is so great for nesting with books and whatnot, but when spring hits I feel renewed and more social. Is it time for me to get amongst my old friends? It’s been about three years that I have been in this modality – I have phases of solitude and massive social behaviour that last a few years at a time.
If I could be immortal, I would be. So many people think it would be a horrid thing. Not me. I want to live as long as possible which is part of my reason for living and eating how I do. Even if our lifespans are getting longer, what is the quality of life for most people living to be really old? Probably not that fantastic. I would rather live a completely badass life and live fewer years than until 120 stuck in a nursing home.
First sign of immortality potion, sign me up.
What are some things I would do if I could live forever?
(I know I can do most of these things anyway)
+ Well first of all, I would write a fuckload of books. Books are my saviour and lifeline and blood and guts.
+ I would want to make films.
+ I’d ride a motorcycle around the world. I’d row across oceans.
+ I’d have a whipsmart band and spew lyrics like a banshee.
+ I would generate the most gorgeous photos I could concoct in my head.
+ I would grow fantastical gardens that take over whole cities.
+ I ‘d have a Pied Piper entourage of dogs.
+ I would have a brood of amazing children who make the world a better place.
+ I’d be the most epic surfer.
+ I’d build a treehouse studio to draw huge beautiful ink portraits.
+ I’d amass a harem of lovers.
+ I would heal as many people and animals as possible.
+ I’d read every beautiful phrase ever written.
+ I’d travel to every country and soak in its luminous qualities.
+ So many countless things I would do. So much I could learn.
Our brains are so endless. We use, what, 10%? I want to fill it up – and I know that is beautifully impossible. And so I could do it forever, filling and filling until I burst – and that would be my moment of death.
Back to the stars. Back to the ocean. Back to the earth. I am already a part of those things, but having a body and having a mind is the most gorgeous gift of all. Don’t take it for granted.